CoCo Recap Wed-Thursday
Aug. 7th, 2015 04:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
llyrafantasyfaeI've started this recap a couple times but don't get very far before I'm crying. Not all of them are tears of sadness but I'm currently so raw that I have no filter and every emotion has been leading to tears.
As soon as we checked into the hotel on Wednesday I got news that a family member had died. To say the relationship is complicated is an understatement. I didn't want to deal with the complicaticity that is those emotions at CoCo. I also didn't want to be the black cloud in the room, not just for everyone I came in contact with but because I didn't want CoCo to be tainted for me. So after talking with my Roomie and calling my hubby I decided I would try and enjoy CoCo and deal with things when I got back. I had some low moments, and I hope they didn't show to much. I tried my best to escape the room and be by myself when those happened. The main reason I bring it up here is to say, if I seemed distant, and I mean more distant than my usual distant, there was a reason and it probably wasn't you. And for the few of you who did catch me when my mask was to fall, and I happened to tell you what was going on. Thank you. I withdraw when I'm not okay. And each of you respected that. There were needed words of advice, there was validation that my feelings were normal even if some of them were not stereotypical, but the main one is providing the distractions I needed when I started to get to much inside my own head, but also allowing me some me time to recharge my batteries.
Wednesday night![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
koshka_the_cat, mala_14,starlightmasque and I went out to eat. It was a hole in the wall place but oh so yummy! I will always drive into Costume College, so anybody who comes in on Wednesday and can fit in my car, you are welcome to join. Times spent eating out were quality time spent away from CoCo, that I got to really talk to people. I like it because those people became more real and not not just costuming acquaintances. Added bonus for coming in on Wednesday was ALLL our ironing was done that night.
Thursday we went to the beach. We had big plans to sleep in but I think both my roomie and I were up by 9:30. We lounged about as I put finishing touches on one of my classes.missmalexander happened to text me and we discovered there had been a miscommunciation somewhere and if we waited 45 mins from our planned departure time she would be able to join us. So of course we did!!!! We didn't stay extremely long but it was still a lot of fun silliness. I have grand plans of redoing this costume. I like it but I have learned so much since I made it, that it just has to be redone.
After the beach we went to a Vegan/Vegetarian resturant. From here on out I declare that it shall be known as "The Hippie Resturant". Simply because that is what it was called all weekend and it amuses me greatly.
The pool party was especially hard for me. I had to make some very difficult calls right before so I was espeicially fragile. I tried to not show I was and I feel I may have started leaning towards the maniac side of things. I plastered a smile on my face and I was talking and laughing and mingling, way more than my normal. But I had to. If I hadn't I think I would of totally cracked and started crying. I'm surprised people were able to get decent pics like this one fromravenessdotcom since I hadn't bothered to put make up back on after it was washed away from crying.
After the pool party we went upstairs totayloropolis' trunk show. The first of 3 times I think. She is now in the same boat as American Duchess and takes all my money. I regret nothing!!!!
And then this happened. Cue fangirl moment #1:
I am so glad you guys are my kind of crazy. I promise it wasn't all that crazy. I hate how the bonnet looks on me. I think it looks like a baby bonnet. So I put it on backwards and gangsta victorian was born.jenthompson is just sweet enough to entertain me and join me for a pic.
I am being told I have to go out to eat with my hubby. *oh the horrors I know* so I will finish the rest of the weekend tonight.
As soon as we checked into the hotel on Wednesday I got news that a family member had died. To say the relationship is complicated is an understatement. I didn't want to deal with the complicaticity that is those emotions at CoCo. I also didn't want to be the black cloud in the room, not just for everyone I came in contact with but because I didn't want CoCo to be tainted for me. So after talking with my Roomie and calling my hubby I decided I would try and enjoy CoCo and deal with things when I got back. I had some low moments, and I hope they didn't show to much. I tried my best to escape the room and be by myself when those happened. The main reason I bring it up here is to say, if I seemed distant, and I mean more distant than my usual distant, there was a reason and it probably wasn't you. And for the few of you who did catch me when my mask was to fall, and I happened to tell you what was going on. Thank you. I withdraw when I'm not okay. And each of you respected that. There were needed words of advice, there was validation that my feelings were normal even if some of them were not stereotypical, but the main one is providing the distractions I needed when I started to get to much inside my own head, but also allowing me some me time to recharge my batteries.
Wednesday night
koshka_the_cat, mala_14,starlightmasque and I went out to eat. It was a hole in the wall place but oh so yummy! I will always drive into Costume College, so anybody who comes in on Wednesday and can fit in my car, you are welcome to join. Times spent eating out were quality time spent away from CoCo, that I got to really talk to people. I like it because those people became more real and not not just costuming acquaintances. Added bonus for coming in on Wednesday was ALLL our ironing was done that night.Thursday we went to the beach. We had big plans to sleep in but I think both my roomie and I were up by 9:30. We lounged about as I put finishing touches on one of my classes.
missmalexander happened to text me and we discovered there had been a miscommunciation somewhere and if we waited 45 mins from our planned departure time she would be able to join us. So of course we did!!!! We didn't stay extremely long but it was still a lot of fun silliness. I have grand plans of redoing this costume. I like it but I have learned so much since I made it, that it just has to be redone.After the beach we went to a Vegan/Vegetarian resturant. From here on out I declare that it shall be known as "The Hippie Resturant". Simply because that is what it was called all weekend and it amuses me greatly.
The pool party was especially hard for me. I had to make some very difficult calls right before so I was espeicially fragile. I tried to not show I was and I feel I may have started leaning towards the maniac side of things. I plastered a smile on my face and I was talking and laughing and mingling, way more than my normal. But I had to. If I hadn't I think I would of totally cracked and started crying. I'm surprised people were able to get decent pics like this one from
ravenessdotcom since I hadn't bothered to put make up back on after it was washed away from crying.After the pool party we went upstairs to
tayloropolis' trunk show. The first of 3 times I think. She is now in the same boat as American Duchess and takes all my money. I regret nothing!!!!And then this happened. Cue fangirl moment #1:
I am so glad you guys are my kind of crazy. I promise it wasn't all that crazy. I hate how the bonnet looks on me. I think it looks like a baby bonnet. So I put it on backwards and gangsta victorian was born.
jenthompson is just sweet enough to entertain me and join me for a pic.I am being told I have to go out to eat with my hubby. *oh the horrors I know* so I will finish the rest of the weekend tonight.
