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Apr. 2nd, 2014 01:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
llyrafantasyfaeI wanted to make sure I thanked everyone who put in ANY type of input into my Victorian Explorer dress. I appreciate ALL of it. From just an opinion on what looks better to the History and why behind certain choices. Really THANK YOU. Even though I sometimes still felt stupid for having to ask, "I've been doing this for 12 years, I should know this! I shouldn't have to ask", the answers didn't make me feel stupid. I'm in a weird place mentally which is probably to be expected with all the life changes going on right now. And I know its carrying over to my sewing also. I am trying to figure out where I want to go in life, and it carries over to where to I want to go with my sewing. ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
koshka_the_cat's blog post about perfectionism, came at the perfect/worst time. Depends on how you want to look at it. :) Either way it got me to thinking even more then I already am. I plan to write about it. And when I am done if it makes any type of sense, and isn't just a bunch of embarrassing rambling I may post it.
Another thing I am struggling with, is, I would like to take steps into making a bigger presence online but then my insecurities come up and I wonder if I even have anything worth offering. Take the Victorian Explorer as an example, and all the questions I asked with it. My personal Online Costuming Superheros never seem to have questions or road blocks. They just seem to magically produce beautiful things, that leave me thinking I should stick the the sidelines. And while I don't mind watching the game and playing cheerleader, I'm also at the point I would like to play a few innings. I don't just want to be on the sidelines but I don't want to get crushed from playing out of my league. I am hoping I can transition with baby steps. I think the hardest part is knowing how easy it is to be snarky and mean online. I still remember how crushing it was to me my second year at CoCo, 1st year alone, when I approached a costumer I had held in high regard and asked her a question about her costume. She looked me up and down, all but sneered, gave me a 3 word answer and walked away. I didn't run back to my room and cry, even though I wanted to, but I did debate on not returning the next year. Thankfully I did return and the positive is now leaps and bounds higher then that one crushing event. I am hoping increasing my online presence will be much the same, with the positive far out weighing the bad. I still have a lot of thinking about what and how I exactly want to approach this, but this post is my first tentative baby step.
Have I rambled enough for you yet?
koshka_the_cat's blog post about perfectionism, came at the perfect/worst time. Depends on how you want to look at it. :) Either way it got me to thinking even more then I already am. I plan to write about it. And when I am done if it makes any type of sense, and isn't just a bunch of embarrassing rambling I may post it.Another thing I am struggling with, is, I would like to take steps into making a bigger presence online but then my insecurities come up and I wonder if I even have anything worth offering. Take the Victorian Explorer as an example, and all the questions I asked with it. My personal Online Costuming Superheros never seem to have questions or road blocks. They just seem to magically produce beautiful things, that leave me thinking I should stick the the sidelines. And while I don't mind watching the game and playing cheerleader, I'm also at the point I would like to play a few innings. I don't just want to be on the sidelines but I don't want to get crushed from playing out of my league. I am hoping I can transition with baby steps. I think the hardest part is knowing how easy it is to be snarky and mean online. I still remember how crushing it was to me my second year at CoCo, 1st year alone, when I approached a costumer I had held in high regard and asked her a question about her costume. She looked me up and down, all but sneered, gave me a 3 word answer and walked away. I didn't run back to my room and cry, even though I wanted to, but I did debate on not returning the next year. Thankfully I did return and the positive is now leaps and bounds higher then that one crushing event. I am hoping increasing my online presence will be much the same, with the positive far out weighing the bad. I still have a lot of thinking about what and how I exactly want to approach this, but this post is my first tentative baby step.
Have I rambled enough for you yet?
