Checking in

[llyrafantasyfae]

Some of you may have noticed random comments from me on old posts. I spent over 6 hours the past few days trying to catch back up. There was a lot more I wanted to comment on but feel weird giving a 'that looks so cool' or other such comments on old stuff. I miss you guys!!!!
I fell into my same old depression spiral. I still had the depression lingering from my Mom's death and then I was quickly overwhelmed by school. I became a recluse because that is my coping mechanism. The problem with that is it gets me through things, but I don't get better. I am grateful though for the friends who poked me through facebook or text. It may have been just a random kitty pic or asking how I was, but I honestly think it helped me not fall as far into the downward spiral. Last time it happened I didn't resurface for 3 months. This one was only a month.
I think part of the recluse mode was also the lack of sewing. Sewing is my creative outlet. It's my happy. But I haven't had time. This semester has been busier than I expected it to be and I am also working part time now. I have discovered a new fun outlet with the photography class I took on a whim. I have a super exciting project I am doing for my Final Project in that class. Here's the first installment of it. I plan to do the Gotham Sirens, each with different styles of modeling, to include their character traits, costumes, make up and also different photgraphy styles.

Just a random selfie but I love my eye make-up! First attempt a the flick and for a self-proclaimed makeup loser I think I nailed it!

I was attempting a very pin-up look for Poison Ivy.

A favorite of mine from the shoot. I have pretty eyes dang-it!!!! I think I need to put it through a different filter, though. The plants aren't that odd of a color.

I plan to take Camera's and Comp next semester and Digital Photography over the Summer. If I am not in the nursing program at that point I will hopefully take advance Digital or one that has a photoshop class connected to it.

Speaking of upcoming semesters. After this semester, I am finally done with all my prereqs for the nursing program!!! I can officially apply!!! The waiting list for this school is long though. I have heard 1-3 years from fellow students. The official word from the program is 1-2 semesters. I spoke with the counselors and if I take 2 more maths and 3 more Psych I can get a Psych AA for transfer and a Lib Arts AA in Science and Math. Those along with the American Sign Language and Photography classes I want to take, will keep me busy for 2 more semesters while I wait to get into the program. You'all remember how much I like math though right??? UGH!!!! But two associates! I know in the scheme of things Associates don't mean much, especially in this circle, with those of you who have or are working on Masters and what not, but to me it's a huge deal! Growing up school was always a luxury. You get a job, and working hard is how you move up. So to see proof that this hasn't been a total waste of my time and that this work finally producing results is pretty awesome.

Comments

[starlightmasque.livejournal.com]

So happy to see your gorgeous face! WOW! Those are incredible photos. Depression spirals are the worst, I'm so glad you're back!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I've been really self conscious about this project soil really appreciate the compliments!
I'm glad to see you back also. I'm going to try really hard to not let them end of the semester suck me back into the spiral.

[mala-14.livejournal.com]

You are so gorgeous! And you're a talented photographer!

I hear ya on the not enough time to sew because of school. It makes me feel more icky than I need to because I don't have that creative outlet.

Best of luck with applying and wait times!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks Hon! I still have a lot to learn with the photography but I'll take the compliment! 😝

[jubilima.livejournal.com]

Oh honey! I'm so sorry for your loss. What a hard and sad burden to bear.

I did notice your comments on old posts, but I thought you were just off busy doing fabulous cosplay things. I'm sorry you've been in a funk, but I'm loving your creative outlets! Your photos are so sexy and gorgeous.

Congrats on your TWO associates!!! That's quite an accomplishment. :)

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Our relationship was complicated so it's been an odd road to travel. That's why I didn't share much about it.
You make me blush!!! I've been super self conscious about this project but it's also exciting to explore another creative outlet.

[cavaliermom.livejournal.com]

Your makeup is gorgeous! Love the hair and brows too. Know what it is like to struggle with depression, and my heart goes out to you. Looking forward to seeing more of your glamorous photos.

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I wasn't sure if I should go for the brows or not.

[mlsdesigns.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one *hugs* I'm so glad you found a creative outlet, your photographs are just gorgeous, the lighting in that last one is amazing!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I miss you chica!!!
And thanks. It has been fun.

[girliegirl32786.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It can be so easy to go into hermit-mode when you are sad or stress , but I'm glad you are resurfacing. And I'm glad you've found another creative outlet! Like I said before, I think this is such an awesome project. You look killer! Pun intended. ;)

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

:) So many hugs! Because you are one of those who texts me and reminds me hermit mode is not the only mode I should live in.
I just put up the catwoman ones. Not as many good ones as Poison Ivy but I think the good ones were Gold.