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Jun. 28th, 2018 03:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
llyrafantasyfae I missed posting yesterday. I finished my motif around midnight and crashed for the night. It was a trying day. I got a phone call that woke me up and it was Cal State Bakersfield, the school I was going to do my BSN through. They had more seats open up. I had choose back in March that I couldn’t handle the stress at that time and I’d wait a year and get set in my job. Then they extended the deadline and I felt guilty but the hubby and I had our plan so I was sticking to it. People got there acceptance letters and I felt even worse. Now this and I can’t help but think big guns is saying do the program. I’m torn. Even though hubby said go for it. Leave it to fate, if I’m meant to go I’ll get accepted and the student loan will go through. If not I take the year off. Part of me wants to be selfish. I want a life. I want to sew and not look like a said excuse of a costumer for the 5th year in a row at CoCo. I want to go to Big events like France. I’m tired of being tired all the time. I sick of all the stress.
But I also know this is a needed step towards Nurse Practioner. It’s more money in the long run. Plus I’ll have the potential to save money if my FAFSA goes off last years vs waiting and starting to work and the FAFSA reflecting 2 full time incomes. And this will get me there quicker if I get in. Also I’ll know some of my classmates, since some of mine already got accepted. I cried because of frustration hereand the hubby talked with me and that’s how we came up with the go for it. That’s my goal for tomorrow.
When hubby got home we went to dinner with my folks as a late bday thing then went to the rental property. Kid flushed a toothbrush down the toilet ! !??
today was my last day of review for my NCLEX exam and I ran a bunch of errands while I was in town. And I still managed 2. Motifs! So I’m 2 ahead.
But I also know this is a needed step towards Nurse Practioner. It’s more money in the long run. Plus I’ll have the potential to save money if my FAFSA goes off last years vs waiting and starting to work and the FAFSA reflecting 2 full time incomes. And this will get me there quicker if I get in. Also I’ll know some of my classmates, since some of mine already got accepted. I cried because of frustration hereand the hubby talked with me and that’s how we came up with the go for it. That’s my goal for tomorrow.
When hubby got home we went to dinner with my folks as a late bday thing then went to the rental property. Kid flushed a toothbrush down the toilet ! !??
today was my last day of review for my NCLEX exam and I ran a bunch of errands while I was in town. And I still managed 2. Motifs! So I’m 2 ahead.
