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[llyrafantasyfae]

I'm hanging in there. Picture proof.

Yes I am a goofball. Dress still needs to be hemmed, and snaps put in to close it.
My shoes are almost done! I was a little afraid the rhinestones made it look cheesy but its growing on me.

My beading so far. I have even gotten a bit further then this picture. Bead count so far 1300. Thank goodness for nuranar. She's my inspiration. She's just as crazy as me if not crazier because she's gotten the back of hers done also.
I think my husband summed up most of whats going on for me yesterday. He said " When you shoot for Pluto nothing else will do. You're not happy with the moon or even Venus. If you want Pluto that's all that's going to make you happy." It maybe corny but its true. If you haven't figured out with reading my posts I am an extreme perfectionist. Yes there are a lot of things I could care less about, but if I set my mind on something, it has to be perfect.
So getting a C on my first quiz followed by a D on my second quiz.... and spending hours upon hours trying to understand this stuff but just not... The only way I can compare the feeling is to compare it to drowning. I get an occasional gasp of air but most of the time shear panic. Cue Anxiety attacks which make no logical sense since they don't help a damn thing.... but try telling them that. It only ends up making me depressed. I recognized the cycle and decided to pull away from things in hopes it wouldn't spread.
I did find something that was very surprising to me. In that state the things I found most calming, were the anal retentive details on my shoes. Making sure lines were perfectly straight and stuff like that. I'm glad the anxiety/depression didn't spread to my sewing/crafting. It's nice to have a something to escape to. I am so excited for CoCo. Even if I don't get my beading done. I want to see everybody and all their pretty things. And I may not have as much as I wanted done, but I will have new things that I am quite proud of. A tad bit over two weeks!

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[koshka-the-cat.livejournal.com]

Yay! It's all looking so good!


I probably used about 1700-1800 beads on my entire GoT dress--one tube plus a little bit of another. Those are some concentrated beads!

I'm so glad that you're enjoying costuming too. What a relief! Pluto is a very difficult goal :)

[nuranar.livejournal.com]

Dang! Your dress is put together and it looks GREAT! And those are some stinkin' fabulous shoes. :D

I'm sorry about the class. I do understand how a sewing activity or something like this can be so therapeutic, though. It's *totally different* from the other thing you're doing that in itself it's a break; and on top of that, you can *successfully* be perfectionist on it. Very soothing. (((HUGS)))

Yay, beading coming along! It's time-consuming, but I find it rather soothing and relaxing as well. I have to stop it for a while, though, because I really need to put the bodice together and drape the skirt, so I can then get to the skirt beading. Whew!

[nuranar.livejournal.com]

Oh! Did you use black net for the neckline? Because that's a great idea, to mimic the dark/black beads.

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Yep! With all the examples I saw I knew the net could be black or cream and since I darkened my overall beading scheme I went with black. I changed my plans though. I had seen both with and without lining behind the net. I like the looks of no lining in pictures but hated it on me. It showed my corset and chemise. :( so it has a lining.
And the pictures suck all the color out of my beads. Wait till you see them irl! They are still dark, a dark navy color but they have the iris finish. It reminds me of mother of pearl or the beetle wings with the variations. I'm loving it!

[nuranar.livejournal.com]

Yeah, in my experience dark sheers tend to be less opaque than light ones. :( I'm going to try for no lining on mine (white), using a double layer and hoping for the best, but I'm prepared to line as well if necessary.

I can't wait! I remember seeing an earlier closeup and they did look really colorful. SO pretty!

Another thing! I LOVE the length of the skirt. There aren't enough long 1920s dresses out there! (Of course mine won't be one of them...)

[girliegirl32786.livejournal.com]

Yay! Both the dress and the shoes are looking fabulous!

I'm sorry that math has been causing you so much anxiety (math is evil), but I am glad costuming is helping. *hugs*

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks!
I didn't realize yours had as many beads as you said. I can't wait to see it!!!
One of these days I'll learn not to aim for Pluto... But I didn't with this one. I am coming to terms with the possibility of a B. And that it won't be the end of the world. But if I'm truthful the thought of a C still makes my chest hurt which means the anxiety is still there.

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Mine won't be quite that long. I haven't hemmed it. The back is 6 or so inches shorter in bare feet. The front will be just below my knee.

[mala-14.livejournal.com]

Looks gorgeous! That blue-green is lovely on you. Your shoes are fabulous! I think the rhinestones are so cute. And you really are crazy for doing that beading, but in a good way. It's nice that you can get away from the math mindset and do some sewing. It can be tough to let go of that anxiety and stress.

[nuranar.livejournal.com]

Oh, gotcha! It's still gorgeous. :D

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks!
Math is evil. I did well in it in high school but it never came naturally and I had to work at it. Lesson learned though. Do not take a Math class over the Summer.

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I love this color. I can honestly say there is only one thing I don't like about it. The dropped waist isn't the most flattering on my figure. But I love everything else!!!!!

[starlightmasque.livejournal.com]

*FAB*U*LOUS*!!!!!!