Update of sorts

[llyrafantasyfae]

I finished my midterms early and find myself lost, not knowing what to do with all my free time.  It'd be nice if I could pick up and do something productive..... but I've been lacking any real motivation to do anything. Except maybe cuddle a certain furball and eat.  But I don't want to dwell on the bad. Thats part of why I maintain radio silence on here. I don't want you all to hate reading my posts because the are so bleak.
WonderCon was last weekend. I got sick the day before so I didn't wear costumes the full run. Can't say I was overly disappointed. I wore a Captain America dress and just wondered the con floor. Surprisingly I got a lot of complements on the dress. We had dinner, Friday, with bauhausfrau,. I love seeing you all outside of CoCo. I think Meals were the highlights for me during the weekend. Friday with Loren and Saturday with military friends of the hubby and mine.
A few weeks back I was asked if I would make a Steampunk Captain America. I didn't think I would have time but it intrigued me. So I gave a tentive yes. I took the parts of my Burlesque Captain America and expanded on it. While Burlesque Captain America was tons of fun, especially with gilded_garb as my Bucky, I always felt SUPER self-concious. I got some good pics out of it and nows its been morphed. And I like it. Its still just version one because I ran out of time. But I like it! I felt completely comfortable, and really pretty. I have a few plans to make it resemble his uniform a bit more. white undersleeves, red spats, a hat with veil and a bigger star on the chest.

I was a little sad because I loved it so much but didn't have a ton of requests for pics. I was crying about it to my hubby and he told me it was because they were sniping pics and not asking me for them. He also told me that as they passed me they would say how cool it is. I told him he was lying and he insisted. He was walking behind me most of the time so he noticed it. I'd be lying if I said I didn't need that morale boost.
Sunday I wore Harley.


My next project is to finish my Victorian Ballgown in a week so I have it for the ball. After that.... not sure. I am still in a major slump. TONS of CADD but no desire to actually sew.

Comments

[theladyrebecca.livejournal.com]

I love the Steampunk Captain America! You look great!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[mrs_maupin]

Your steampunk Captain America is FABULOUS ! So is your Harley quinn, btw :)

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I like them both but Cap is my favorite.

[mala-14.livejournal.com]

You look awesome! Sorry you've still been feeling down. I hope you have a Happy Birthday!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks Hun!!! It's a sucky slump but I keep reminding it's not permanent.

[bauhausfrau.livejournal.com]

You look great as Steampunk cap! And Harley is cute as always.

Seriously, don't feel down about people not asking for pics. C and I were in costume all weekend and certain costumes got only a few or NO pic requests. I wore my blue birds Cersei, my magnum opus, and had only three people ask to take pics of it! And no one took pics of my trek costume. If you saw my other post on cosplay navel gazing I go into what I think the reasons for this are a bit.

It was great to see you!

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

I read your post and completely agree with it, but I must admit I'm not ready to give up on the "pretty/sexy young thing" cosplays. I have given up on school aged or kids cosplays but I still feel drawn to all sorts of different characters. I know I can't compete with the young thin cosplayers. And that's not what I strive for. But I do get a huge thrill out of being asked for my picture, or when someone comments on my costume. I don't want to nessecarily be recognized for how sexy I am but on my craftsmanship, my portrayal of the character or ability in bringing it alive, my clever mash ups.
So while I didn't get any requests for pictures of my Harley, I didn't expect any. She's overdone, mine wasn't especially clever, or revealing. But I enjoy her as a character so I cosplayers her. The captain though I had a lot of pride in it, I thought it was a fun and different approach. So that's why the disappointed feeling that I didn't get a lot of requests for pics. But hubby pointed out that we weren't down in the lobby where all the photographers were either. And when we passed through I did have someone chase me to get a pic as I went up the escalator. ........ So maybe I am just a self conscious and vain person....

[bauhausfrau.livejournal.com]

Please take that post I made as strictly my feelings about MY OWN cosplay. I'm not trying to tell anyone what they should or shouldn't cosplay!

And I'm also probably at least 10 years older than you so I really feel "more mature" and not like an ingenue any more - I turn 50 this year :O

That said - I didn't say I wouldn't do sexy any more! I just need more characters that fit more who I feel I am. I've got a pretty sexy Cruella in the works and personally I think the Cinderella step mother is sexy, they are all just older and more sophisticated instead of innocent young things.

[llyrafantasyfae.livejournal.com]

Don't worry Hun, I didn't take anything you said as anymore than that. It did make me think though. All thoughts I have been thinking, since wanting to get into Cosplay more. Lots of complicated thoughts and those mess with the self esteem. I am trying to determine what/where I want to go with it.
I want to become more popular but refuse to do certain things. I'm not going to walk across the con floor in a bikini just to get noticed. Sure no one wants to see that but even if I was a size 2 I wouldn't do it. Sexy, yes, I want to feel sexy, and/or beautiful, but there has to be a costume worth involved also. Like I said Complicated thoughts.
I get the want for more sophisticated characters. Like my Little Red. I didn't want her to be cute, or even Halloween sexy. I wanted dark, myseterious and sexy. And maybe in 10ish years I will have slide all the way over and be done with still wanting to play the occasional cute sweet thing. :)
I still cannot believe you are turning 50. I know some people are offended and feel really old when they hear, "I want to be you when I get older/grow up". But I mean it in the most respectable way possible. You are so gorgeous and fun!

[bauhausfrau.livejournal.com]

and p.s. - yes, most of the pics taken of us were in the lobby, generally if we weren't down there people weren't taking pics of us. So seriously, take it with a grain of salt!