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Apr. 13th, 2011 07:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
llyrafantasyfae I am still fighting pretty hard with the depression. They are messing my meds up, or switching them around I should say so some of it is probably that.
I got my costume college registration! I am so excited about that. There is a lot of classes I am interested in this year. For my Limited classes I picked: 1. Renaissance Partlets, 2. Make a Calash Bonnet, 3. Period Lacings and Points, 4. A pressing Matter. My past two years I have only gotten one off my list but I think I would be pretty happy with any of them. I decided to stray away from the embroidery classes because I wanted to leave my limited class with something close to done... After picking out my classes though a whole new wave of despair hit.
I got my costume college registration! I am so excited about that. There is a lot of classes I am interested in this year. For my Limited classes I picked: 1. Renaissance Partlets, 2. Make a Calash Bonnet, 3. Period Lacings and Points, 4. A pressing Matter. My past two years I have only gotten one off my list but I think I would be pretty happy with any of them. I decided to stray away from the embroidery classes because I wanted to leave my limited class with something close to done... After picking out my classes though a whole new wave of despair hit.
My first thought was I have nothing new and/or pretty to wear. Next was along the lines of I won't have anything by then either cause I suck. I have noticed with Costume College, if you don't have a fab costume, or your own little group already you will pretty much wander around aimlessly. I know a good part of it is my fault with how shy I am so I have a really hard time going up to people myself. But I can keep a conversation going.... if someone comes up to me first.... But how do I do that if I don't have a good costume! Then depressed mind starts crying with frustration. Along with thinking I am just a unlikable person. Thats the only reason people haven't replied to recent updates on LJ... or followed me on my blog.... Right? Then I get mad at myself because you can't just make people like you or be in the cool crowd.. BLAH....
